Relationships

Today I decided to try out the new Institute class that our stake is offering. It's called "Relationships," but really it means Marriage Prep. I guilt-tripped Heidi into going with me because I certainly didn't want to go by myself! It was an alright lesson, I suppose . . .I really liked what we talked about eternal perspective.
And so then I tried applying it. By asking a guy out on a date. Oh my goodness . . .I was an awful wreck beforehand! It's a double date with my cousin Jonathan, and the tickets for the event are already bought for Saturday, so . . .he's guilt-tripping me into going. I tell you what, I went crazy before I got up enough courage to call a guy on the phone to ask him. I spent about 8 minutes on the phone, and at least about 3 times that amount of time trying out my words on Heidi and Jonathan. Do I ask if he's free that night first? I have to be a big girl and use the word "double date." How do I respond if he can't? What small talk can I make before hand? I have to make sure he knows that my cousin is a he and not a she . . .etc etc. This was just like the role-playing that you do with your investigators so they can tell their anti-Mormon family or employer that they're getting baptized. Heidi will be a good missionary; she gives good feedback on that role-play thing!
I am ridiculous I tell you.
I guess that's what happens when I really like this boy.
But Heidi listened in on my side of the conversation to give me feedback. I did okay I think.
But . . .he can't go.
Which means . .. I have to do it all over again . . ..
Shut up.
I should really work on this eternal perspective thing . . ..